Trust And The Monster Within

“I have been hurt so bad, so many times, that I may never trust anyone again.” This statement has been a part of lives of many of us. I feel that no human being is ever spared from betrayal. In fact betrayal makes us more sensitive towards trust and makes us realize the value of truly trusting someone.

In the past few years I have trusted many people and I have been betrayed many times. So much so that at a certain point I had lost hope that I would ever find someone truly trustworthy. But then again I started trusting when I was out of the grief of betrayal and yet I was betrayed again.

This must be the story of almost all of us. We trust, we are betrayed, we loose hope and we trust again within no time as if nothing had happened ever and we are betrayed again. But though we blame our fate or the person we trusted for such a bitter experience, in my opinion all of these experiences that we go through are the outcome of our personal actions. Or should I say the outcome of the actions of the monster within.

There is a monster within all of us, which is hidden deep beneath the faith that we show at the time of trusting someone, but it surfaces to the top as soon as we start to have the fear of loosing the person that we have. It resurfaces in the form of doubts. Doubt that our trust may fail again, doubt that the person is not worth it, doubt that the person may not return as much love as we are giving him/her, doubt that the other person does not need us in his/her life.

Such doubts not only destroy human relationships but also limit us from exercising some of the best powers i.e. love and trust bestowed upon us by God. This monster within in the form of doubts always creates an image as if trust is a battle and we are sure to loose it, whatever we do. And that provokes us to act in an even worse manner, creating greater problems.

So just let go all fear, let go the doubts, bury the monster deep again beneath the powerful force of unwavering faith, let the monster know that you are aware of the fact that trust isn’t a battle but a sweet path to be trodden with peace, and see the miracles that follow in this path of love and trust.